Saturday, July 27, 2013

though it HURTS...i think..your still the One...

I thought i have really moved on...but lately i guess i'm wrong..i engaged in two relationships already but no one ever made me feel the way i feel for him... i wish someday...someone gonna take his place.




























































missing you

It's been a long time...and life is getting good...though trials may surpass sometime but with the strength God had given me i passed it with a flying colors..
Now i'm looking forward to live life with a new colors that i'm going to paint with the one who came a long 6 months ago..and i fell sorry for the one i left behind..its Robert Escalante..i hope u find real happiness soon..thanks for being so understanding in me...


Wednesday, January 23, 2013

THANK YOU


Dear God,
Thanks for loving me beyond compare...
Thanks for being so sensitive that You hear my deepest pain
Thanks for giving me the strength to endure the trials in my life
Thank You for the success, for the happiness, for the good health, for the tears, for the love and pain...and for all that I went through and about to go through because it sharpen me and made me to be the finest I can be.
Thank You for making me one of the luckiest person alive..
I will never get tired of saying thank You to YOU my Guiding Light.I am Yours.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Someday

someday...my
dreams and plans will be accomplish
and someday...
i will be longing for something no more
and someday...
i will be what i wanted myself to be...
because someday...
all my endeavors will be granted...my determination,perseverance and patience will be totally paid off for someday God hear the deepest longing here in my heart.



Sunday, November 11, 2012

So Grateful

Dear God,
 thank You so much for making me so happy...
thank You for the best of health...for making me successful on my ordinary and simple life...for the best set of friends that i have...for my family especially for my parents.
There's no perfect parents in the world but they tried to be the best that they can be for their children though i always complain for the kind of upbringing they used to brought up to all their children but i know it is already their very best. Sorry for all the complains i have been said to You...sorry for the close mind that i gave You when i feel that life seems so hard to understand...i have no right to complain and You given me no reason to complain at all...the problem is with me...i think abruptly...and complain but despite all that i did You still there for me everytime...You are always been my great defender, my best protector, my Guiding light that forever see me through...
Thank You for the comfort... when I shed tears because of being hurt You made sure a day wouldn't last without making me laugh at the end of the day..You love me so much i couldn't fathom...I love You too...and take me to the way You always prepare for me...help to live a life that is in accordance to Your plan and will...
Thank You so much for the best of life that You always give me. I am so fortunate because of You.Thank You...for a billion folds.
Teach me, my dear God to accept the things that i couldn't have no matter how hard i tried and prayed. Teach me to understand it with an open mind and heart knowing that with Your decision for my life will always be the best for me...
I look forward to the days that unfolded slowly for the answers to all the wonders and questions that i have...I love You and till the next post....hmm thank You for being me.


Monday, October 29, 2012

Just ME


when I was young and little 
so fragile and vulnerable
I grew as years gone by 
Difficult times shape me by

Now I become stronger
But the same as before
Some things never change
Things I never learned to outgrew

I'm still a loner and a dreamer
A bit shy but confident
A coward but a fighter
Never did I thought I was born a winner

So innocent from deep within
When I laugh or smile...you know its pure
And through my eyes you'll see...
pain I long endure...

I try to hide it with a smile
Work hard to giggle for a while
Hoping for wound to mend in time
wishing that someday you'll be
whole again heart of mine


getting worse


its so sad to think that i learned the way of being bad. I learned to fight and depend myself far from before....i knew i'm strong, life teaches me to.I learned the hard way and it etched in my memory...together with that I've change from being a good girl I've used to for so long to a woman with so much hatred and vengeance in the heart. I learned to tolerate my anger and become fearless..my pride..its there since the day i was born.
Now I'm a full blown woman..being a person i am now i know its the result by the person who never treat me right..but thanks to them..i learned to be strong..that leads me too..to missed the person i am before...so patience..could take all the ruthless words anyone can say..the one who never know how to defend her ground....
I miss my old self so well..but it sad to say that I learned a lot from being good and that i'd been hurt so bad by the people who see me as worthless....even though i changed a lot the old me is still in my heart but it is too well hidden that the only person can see it are the person i only care about...